(First off, I want to apologize for the cliché titles, but they most readily convey what I have had on my mind lately)
The phone rings, and something in my gut just tells me I will receive bad news. I don’t usually get those gut feelings. My intuitive side rarely kicks in to tell me what I need to know. When it does, I pay close attention.
Saturday morning, I received bad news. This news reaches in and grabs ahold of my most secret fears–the ones I hate to admit even to myself. The ones I keep locked away because I know, if I think about them too often or examine them too closely, they are bound to come true.
Even though I knew news like this would come one day, I had hoped it would wait decades to catch up with me. Part of me still hopes and prays to the God I know watches over us that we can still avoid some of my worst fears. I won’t go into too many details at the moment. Wednesday will determine if hope will continue, or I will have to live through one of the most difficult phases of my life thus far.
Until then, I run. Not literally. Right now, I try to keep busy to avoid my fears catching up with me. I keep busy to avoid thinking too much about the future. I keep busy cherishing my loved ones. I keep busy by making these little hats for the bundles of hope my friends and family will bring into this world in the near future.
Here’s a pattern for a simple baby hat. You can finish off each row to get even stripes, or you can crochet continuously in one color.
Row 1: make a magic circle; put 10 dc (double crochet) in the magic circle
Row 2: inc (2 dc in ea stitch) around [20 stitches]
Row 3: inc, dc* [30 stitches]
Row 4: inc, dc in next 2 stitches* [40 stitches]
Row 5: inc, dc in next 3 stitches* [50 stitches]
Row 6: for a larger hat– inc, dc in next 4 stitches* [60 stitches]–otherwise, dc around
Row 7 on: dc around until desired length